hankarcaki orva hankarcaki ankexcacum....

Enqan xarn en mtqers... enqan vaxuc chem artahaytvel, chem qnnarkel... enqan nor temaner en arajacel vor bardzradzaynel djvararanum em anqam es vor patrast em kyanqs patmel grete bolor hetaqrqrvoxnerin ev voch miayn...

Voroshel em inqs im vra el ashxatel u pordzel qich commentel u nervaynanal baneric voronq poxelu izoru chem... 

korcrel em sahman@ chisht u sxali...

misht partqs em hamarel mijamtel en amenin inch im hamar irakan arjeq uni. Misht ashxatel em antesel en past@, vor es anzor em poxel irakanutyun@...   che xosqn en irakanutyan masin chi vorn im dzerqerum e. Amen mard inqn e ir irakanutyan hexinakn u patasxanatun, bayc che vor mer irakanutyan mej en nayev mez harazat mardkanc kyanqer@? ardyoq izoru enq poxelu?  isk ete gtnum enq vor mez harazat mardkanc karox enq ognel? bayc che vor amen mard inq@ piti chanaparh ancni u hasni ir nshanaketin? commentel? mijamtel? bayc et depqum el nmanatip bayc urish mijavayrum mievnuyn e na iren IR nman e pahelu. mijamteld chi ognelu iren poxvel u gal qo gaxaparin u giakcel u @ndunel u aprel qo irakanutyamb. chcommentel? chmijamtel? ba xxchi xaytd? 

uf shat xarn em ... enqan kariq unem inch vor urish moloraki...

karch asac voroshel em!!! el chmijamtel, chcommentel!!! chnervaynanal!!! indz harazat mardkanc arvox sxalnerin, hay ardi chartarapetutyann u shrjapatox anardar ararqnerin... petq e sovorel gitakcel vor kan baner vor anzor enq poxel!!!  chboxoqel!!!! (chnayac dra kariqn arden xexdum e)   chpahanjel!!!, vor qez haskanan, vor qo hayacqnern @ndunen, vor qez zgan!!!

verji verjo asum en naxadiplomayin depresiaya es ameni anun@... uremn husanq vor evs 9 or u es eli mard kdarnam...

 May 13, 2011 

А в наушниках Bon Jovi

Ходила в наушниках, искала тебя....  Хоть какое-то утешенье от всего происходящего.

Пила кофе... Ходила то туда, то сюда. Вспоминала некоторых великих людей. Пыталась понять, откуда взялся этот слон, вроде бы тут муха гуляла, притом, довольная такая, вся светилась, да расцветала. А тут, слон видишь ли...

Я продолжала ходить, как будто бы если остановлюсь, то утону. А в наушниках Bon Jovi напоминал, что это моя жизнь. И почему эта песня всегда появляется так кстати?

It's my life 

It's now or never 

I ain't gonna live forever 

I just want to live while I'm alive 

It's my life

My heart is like an open highway 

Like Frankie said 

I did it my way 

I just wanna live while I'm alive 

It's my life...

все, пошла за мороженным....

 February 11, 2011

im u bolori masin... shat depresik...

inch kargi cinik enq bolors...

patrast enq sirelu menak nra hamar vor da gnahatvum a ... patrast enq handurjelu vorovhetev mez sirum en...   enqan xarn a amen inch... korcnum es chshti u sxali mejtexi en  nurb tel@. Angam linelov mi ayl kargi skeptik, mek a pordzum es nshanner, hushumner u slaqner gntes angam amena anhavanakan texerum. Katigorik agresiv es @ndunum cankacac qnnadatutyun u patrast es parabanelu en mardun ov kasi "che, du voch mi sxal ban ches anum, amen inch chisht a, du karox es, qo mot anpayman kstacvi"... u nenc kasi vor du khavatas... u mi pah ktva te du amen inch gites, angam apagan... isk heto eli kkorcnes qez, ches @nkali irakanutyun@ u amenasarsapelin...   du ches haskana qez u qo cankutyunner@...  kpordzes linel ardar, skzbum dimacini (che vor tenc aveli mardasirakan a) heto qo andzi handep...  heto noric arcunqner, bardzradzayn asvac artahaytutyunner, xostumner...  heto vor chnkates andzit xxchuk linelu past@ kskses mtacel nra masin u vat tramadrutyund artaracnel misht veh hnchox "inq@ lav chi zgum, es ei mexavor, inq@ nman verabermunqi arjani cher..." ev mi sharq nman artahaytutyunnerov... u tenc mijev hajord "garun"...

 February 10, 2011

COFFEE & CIGARETTES

Cup of coffee and a cigarette…

Cigarettes and coffee, man, that's a combination. 

The beauty of quitting is, now that I've quit, I can have one, 'cause I've quit. 

In a downtown, in a small teahouse, near the wooden table… there was an Armenian girl and Chinese boy. He was a filmmaker from US. With all his look he was shouting that he is an artist... scarf, a little bit longer hair, very small mustache, cup of tea and lots of cigarettes...   the way of his smoking was sooo esthetic that girl couldn't take away her eyes from his hand and cigarette...

"I'm so angry to American politics. They are spending so much money to make LA a non-smoking city. Today, people there are not smoking anymore. I just can't understand why are they trying to keep people away from so many emotionally interesting memories. When I was young, smoking was so fashionable. We were smoking secretly… we were skipping classes in high school, we were smoking in the toilets, beyond the building. We were afraid that somebody would catch us, that our parents would know. Every cigarette was full of emotions. And what is the situation now? What are doing young people? How they are getting all that emotions? If they are smoking, they are not doing it secretly… if it’s a secret, believe me… it’s not a cigarette… "

Memories after watching “Coffee and Cigarettes” 

Jan 19, 2011

Pahic mejberum...

Uf ahat em xndrum, axachum em chpchacnes amen inch….. ches patkeracnum inch tanjanqner en indznic gnum vor es inqs chpchacnem… korcrel em irakanutyans zgacoxutyun@... Chem haskanum inchn a irakan inchn a im erevakayutyan ardyunq@.... Vaaay… Du angam ches patkeracnum vonc em uzum havatal, vor es chisht em amen inch haskanum … u vor amen inch henc tenc a linelu… nenc vonc vor patkeracnum em …. U angam ete chisht chi, angam ete es @ndhamen@ hnarel em, xndrum em mi asa vor et tenc a, tox es nuyn qan urax linem inchqan hima em. Havanabar kases, vor xelagarvel em, bayc angam hima erb irakanutyan vaxic mi dzerqov grum em, isk myusov ardzunqners em maqrum, es erjanik em ….. u amen angam erb achqeris es nayum, tvum a tea sum “ha Tat jan du chisht es ”….. u mievnuyn a galu eli aravot u mek@ indz taparelu uhishacneluya irakanutyan texn u der@....

QO AKNTART@

Misht aprel spasumov…

Misht ka mi karevor amsativ, vorin spasum es. Anum es amen inch motecnelu hamar pahd. Aprum es pahid hamar. Aprum es spasumov. Apa mi or artnanum es ev patin kaxvac oracuycd, aydqan spasvacd tverov, jptum e qez. Aha. Verjapes. Du aprum es. Liarjeq vayelum es odd. Uzum es kangnecnel pahd. Uzum es hamayn ashxarov bxavel “ES APRUM EM”.

Ev noric datarkutyun… Korcnum es qez, shutapuyt stexcum es hajord pahid amsativ@. Ev noric stabil spasumayin kyanq. Ev mi or kasen “Na aprec 79 tari”. Isk du kimanas vor aprel es 39 PAH.

TARORINAK EN CHE MARDIK?

Tarorinak e goyutyund, mard.

Du ashxatum es chogtvel qez trvac hnaravorutyunic. Tuyl es du, mard. Vaxerd aynqan shat en, vor tuyl chen talis azat shnches. Du misht gtnum es shrjapat, ur havatum en veh mardu dimakid. Vaxenum es qaylel. Che vor ka hnaravorutyun vayr @nknelu? Ba dimakd? Ayn amur che vayr knkni.

Mi pah pordzir mtacel. Mi te ches uzum iskapes hamapatasxanel qo isk staxcac kerparid? Havata, da hnaravor e. Bayc inchep ev amen bardzrunq, ayn nuynpes zoher e pahanjum. Haxtaharir vaxd, mard. Noric ver kelnes, tap ktas shorerd u ksharunakes chanaparhd.

Mi dzulvir hazaravor dimakakirnerin.

Du es qo astvac@. Stexcir QO tachar@, mard.